Miscarriage #4.

So at this point, we have had two miscarriages and an ectopic pregnancy. After this miscarriage, my ob wanted to do a ton of blood work. I remember specifically 22 vials of blood taken. I counted while she was drawing.

All 22 vials and not a thing resulted out of range. There was not a single reason we were miscarrying, according to the blood work.

September 26th, 2021 I was pregnant again! I won’t say it was a complete shock, but I did not expect to get pregnant again so quickly.

This time I was taking baby aspirin and progesterone. I was using a cheap pregnancy test that showed the progression in hcg and the test was getting darker and darker. I called my doctor and they immediately brought me in for an ultrasound to confirm placement of the embryo. At this point, I had had several ultrasounds. I knew not to expect much at this one except to confirm the baby was in the uterus.

SURPRISE!!! SURPRISE!!! There were two!! Most people do not know that, but at this ultrasound, there were two sacs seen. Of course, it was so early that was all that could be seen. We followed up in two weeks and at that ultrasound, there was only one embryo. The second sac had dissolved. We also were able to get a heart rate of 120 at this ultrasound. It could not be heard, because it was still early, but she was able to see the flicker of the heartbeat.

We scheduled another 2-week appointment. I finally felt like we were gonna make it this time.

Brice had a birthday during this time frame and boy did the nausea hit the day of his party. We were hosting over 30 people and I was throwing up all day. However, I really did not care. I was carrying our baby and I was happy!

I remained sick from then until I lost the baby. I even busted a blood vessel in my eye from dry heaving so much. It was truly great times!

On October 29th my mom and I headed to the mountains for the weekend with my nieces. My parents had a place in a campground and they had a huge event for Halloween. It was fall, the leaves were gonna be beautiful, I was with my girls, and I was pregnant! I was so happy.

That night, I woke up and started spotting. My world came crumbling down. I couldn’t go back to sleep after that. I just laid in the bed, waiting for everyone to wake up. I got up that morning and tried my best to act okay. However my mom, being the kinda mom she is, knew immediately I was far from okay. I told her what had happened through the night.

My dad had woken up early that morning and drove down to the mountains to spend the day with us, so of course my mom had to tell him what had happened. He immediately prayed with me and went to a friend, who is a pastor, in the campground and they prayed.

I then had to make the phone call to my husband. It’s honestly the WORST part in all of this. Each time I have to tell him “It doesn’t look good ” It destroys me. That part honestly hurts more than seeing it myself.

Then my focus was making sure my nieces had no idea what was going on. I wanted them to have a good weekend. We had such a fun day, trick or treated that night, and then packed up to head home. I was so ready to get back to my husband.

Monday morning, November 1st, we had another doctor’s appointment and confirmed what we expected. There was no longer a heartbeat. You would think you eventually become numb to the words, but you don’t. They hurt the same every time.

My doctor hugged me. She told me to take my time processing and exit out the back door. She said she would send me medication to help me pass the baby since I had not done so on my own. I could not get dressed quickly enough and get out of that room. I sent a text message to my parents and Mackenzie, put my phone down and didn’t pick it back up.

Mackenzie showed up with food that night. She hugged me and we cried.

This was the beginning of what would feel like the longest recovery in my life.

Next week I’ll dive into that but for this week I’ll end up sharing pictures of the fun moments we knew there was a baby snuggled in my belly!