The Girls.

Last week was so heavy and honestly, I’m not mentally ready to go back there this week! So, I’m gonna switch things up and just keep it light this week.

I’ve said it a million times and I’ll say it again. This journey is exhausting! It is an up-and-down emotional rollercoaster. Your life can feel sectioned by two weeks at a time and IF you are even considering saying out loud, “Just relax”, “Stop trying and see what happens”, or “Just go on a trip”, DO NOT. I have medical problems that prevent pregnancy without medications or a miracle from God.

That being said, time to shout out the people who keep me going! Let me introduce my group chat. These ladies are everything to me.

Kate- the life of the group. The one I met first. Kate trusted me with her kids when I was in high school. I love her children and her whole family. Kate is such an encourager! Kate is the one who says, “Let’s make it happen.” When I thought for a minute my path was IVF Kate was the first to say “Well, when are we doing a fundraiser?” Kate will drive me absolutely up the wall about her dern gamecocks, but I love it. If I picked up the phone at any moment and said Kate- I need you she would say, “Okay. Where am I coming?” Kate will one day drive a minivan and keep all my kids.

Kate, I love you. I am so grateful you walked into New Life when I was just a child. I will never be able to thank you for your friendship and support.

Katie- my emotional supporter. I will never forget Katie and her family walking into New Life for the first time! I was so excited to see new faces. I had no idea who she was or what her story was, but I was filled with joy. It wouldn’t take long before we found out we shared stories. Katie had a baby in heaven too. She was one of the only ones who truly knew the hurt I felt. It’s a bond no one wants to share, but if you do, it’s a deep bond. Katie showed up with gift baskets, she showed up with food. Katie and I ended up speaking at a Mother’s Day service and it’s a moment I’ll never forget. Katie is the one I can text when the emotions are so wild. She literally pleads with God for my baby as much as I do.

Katie, I love you. I hope our kids are besties in heaven. I can’t wait for the day they show us all the good spots in heaven. I am so sorry we share this hurt, but I do not doubt in my mind you walked through those church doors for me. God knew I would need you.

Julie- the one who keeps me level-headed. My face apparently told Julie I didn’t like her. (Sorry, friend.) I love so hard and so deep. I will go to bat for any of my friends or family. Sometimes I may come off as rude, but it’s just a guard. Thank goodness Julie didn’t hold a grudge. Julie is my go-to errand runner friend. I don’t wanna be alone, call Julie. I want food, call Julie. Sitting on the bathroom floor crying, call Julie. Julie is the one who reminds me it’s okay to hurt. It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to be mad, but you CANNOT STAY THERE. You dry the tears, pick up your face, and keep smiling. She reminds me that God is in control even in my moments of doubt. Julie and I had surgery within days of each other and there is nothing better than a friend who naps with you on the couch, with heating pads, while the guys cook.

Julie, I love you. You are the friend everyone needs. I will forever be grateful you walked into New Life with your family as well. PS I promise I always liked you.

Put these three ladies in one group chat and we can do some damage! We share devotionals, we laugh together, and we cry together. We have each other’s back. If someone is having a bad day, they will be encouraged in a matter of seconds. If someone needs prayer, the group chat starts praying. If someone is not responding, we will blow up your phone until you do. These ladies are the hands and feet of Jesus and I am so grateful I get to be a part of this friendship.

Ladies, thank you will never be enough. I hope you all know you are the best of friends and there is never a doubt in mind of who I can call on. I pray that I provide the same support to each of you.